what the heck

I'm going to pretend that you've been wondering about where the hell I've been, because it sure as shit hasn't been here, writing on my blog, like it used to be, back when I got drunk or high every night and watched movies and talked about 'inspiration' and 'art' and 'creating' a '[piece] of [work]' while sitting behind this computer and 'thinking.' Yes, I've been reading David Foster Wallace's Oblivion, a collection of his short stories. Brilliant work.

Anyway, where I've been is right here, now getting high, or trying new drugs, or getting drunk, or working with comrades or attending the counter at the gas station. I've been here, not talking to vagrants or thugs or mischievous persons, not conversing with the middle-to-lower classes dregs from trailer parks, the race car driving classes, the hard-on-their-luck layed-off people who used to have jobs at the local industrial park and the gals who need babysitters and the men who don't, the construction workers, the people's people. That where I am, right here, living a perfectly boring, honest, sober life.

And I can't stand it.

I hate living this vanilla lifestyle. There's no sleaze, no dirt, no seedy underbelly to this kind of life. All there is is wholesome sobriety, fun-filled board games, an honest day's work, and living by the fruit of my hands. And it is driving me absolutely stir crazy. I mean, the most I've got here is chewing tobacco. And even that is pretty boring--I mean, smoking is smoking, and there's snuff, but chewing tobacco is just so tame compared that what I used to do, what I want to do so badly. I wish they would just legalize marijuana or prescription drugs or ecstasy or something just so I can go get my high on and pretend like I'm some sort of person living in some sort of universe with something resembling something to say to someone out there who thinks something about me. You know, a drug to make me believe I'm anywhere but here and anyone but me. Because right now, I'm pretty fucking bored with myself, with what is available to me. Even the Internet can't entertain me any longer, and that's saying something!

I have been playing a lot of Neverwinter Nights. Great fucking RPG by Bioware, one of my long time favorite companies. The haven't disappointed me yet. Neverwinter Nights, I bought the platimun or whatever edition with all the addons, and then Neverwinter Nights 2 with all the extras, and they've had Baulder's Gate, a number of those, a bunch of which I bought and played, and Dragonage: Origins, and Mass Effect, and KotoR and just a shit-ton of absolutely great role playing games. So that's been my life. Instead of getting high and writing on my blog, I play games. Instead of a normal job, I work on computers. Instead of human interaction, I am a hermit.

And now that my game is done updating, I bid you adieu.

More at a later time.