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Well not exactly so much as to what is normal or whatever as to what can or is considered to be found within reasonable bounds of societal acceptance. So not really meaning this or that per se but just sort of in the vicinity of, you see, and then that makes it all fine.

Because we all see ourselves the way we want to be seen, or the way that we want to see us. And but so the thing is that we each think ourselves different or rare or even unique when the actual thing about it is that we are not, in fact, any of those things--that you or I are in fact just another face or piece of the puzzle in the crowd or what have you, that even though you and I are right here, that we may not look or act alike, but you can bet that out of the over seven billion people on the planet that there has to be at least one other person out there who represents you or I in exactly the same way we present ourselves here and now. Or even if you look back through time then there is almost an infinite number of people from which we can choose to match ourselves up with.

It's not discouraging, I'm not discouraged by the idea but I just think that we need to come to terms as it is with exactly who and what we are as humans, that even though we're all told that we're special or above average or we're cards or characters or jokers or what have you that the reality of it is that we are just one of the many people who are taught exactly those same things around the world and that even within our own country or state or county we are simply another person probably no different than the guy down the street. What I'm saying is that sure, a few of the people who grow up thinking they are special will actually be special and unique or rare, but the large number of those people will be just regular Janes and Johns.

I think there is a time in every person's life when he or she sits down and examines his or her life and looks on the achievements he or she accomplished and asks his or her self a very serious question, that being: Am I a genius? And it's a completely rational question, is what I'm saying, because we're conditioned to be thinking that what we as individuals have accomplished is somehow or some way not as easily or even at all accomplished by other humans on the planet, which is a small was of looking at the place but that's how we're raised and what we are taught to believe, and not exactly taught like as in taught in school but just the general zeitgeist around the whole attitudes we have of ourselves because that's the way our peers and parents have shown us to behave.

And so here we are, sitting in front of the mirror just looking into the beautiful eyes we have staring back at us looking into ourselves and we have to ask if we are true geniuses or not. And then the question is probably never answered, but not because we don't want to maybe, but more like fear of the actual answer, like the agony not of defeat but of just being a normal, everyday Joe Schmoe who hasn't done anything that some other jerk down the way can't do. That our accomplishments are meaningless, basically. And what's more is how many geniuses do you actually know, and how would you know a genius if you met one, and how could you tell that of yourself? Is it akin to being crazy, like only the crazy people believe they aren't actually crazy, and so what, asking yourself if you are genius just proves that you aren't genius because you had to ask in the first place? And where does that leave us, I mean, not you are me per se, but us as in like a society or culture or even a species, that we are all to afraid to answer our own questions because the answers to them are already answered by asking the questions.

Okay? And but here's the thing, is that how many of us sit down and then ask in the same serious manner or tone or attitude and then seriously ask ourselves if we are fools or idiots? And if we do do the same rules apply as to that of the genius or crazy question, like if we ask do we have to ask or is just asking itself a sort of answer? I mean, if you are an idiot would you know it, or would you really have to ask, since you're a complete fool? I mean if we sit down as individuals and ask if we are as individuals genius, then we should also ask in the same manner or tone if we are fools, but the reality of it is that we are just as individuals somewhere in the middle.

And don't take this as like a nod to eugenics or fascism or like the Nazis or whatever but shouldn't we also have to ask whether or not we as individuals should even be breeding, I mean like, do we have what it takes to get in and through the gene pool or do we have the kind of genetic garbage that should be avoided when it comes to our race, you know? Because there are a lot of people I know and individuals I've seen that I see and I think that you know, maybe the world would be better off, our race would be in better shape, you know, if maybe those particular people would maybe use some protection--and not for just them but, you know, for us as well--or maybe at some time maybe they should have the vas deferens cut or the tubes tied of whatever, you know, for like the betterment of all of humanity. Like I knew this guy who is a cousin of one of my friends, but the guy lives like out in Florida of whatever, right, and he's like, the worst thing I can imagine. Like, smokes lots of cigarettes--not so bad in itself--and lots of drugs, right, and just sort of can't keep his life in order, and can't keep a job, and then he goes out and gets this girl, right, this chick whose already had three kids with different guys, and so but then he gets together with her and then the two go ahead and have yet another kid and so now they're together and will probably have you know like another kid, but like how did it get like that, I mean, wouldn't you just use a condom or something after the first couple of accidents. Because I mean like I don't think either of them were really planning on kids, you know, like they wouldn't really have the means or ways to raise or efficiently care for their children, like one kid, let alone you know four of them.

So but like wouldn't you if you were one of those two just sit down one day after asking yourself if you're a genius or not also sit down one of those days and ask if you are a fool or moron or simply unfit to reproduce, like would the world really be in a better place if there was another one of you running around out there, doing the same things you did in your youth, living the same general life, or whatever? Or even if you have like an obligation to the rest of the planet and the race to maybe you know butt out this time or take one for the team, you know? Or even not even like beyond that would be the question like, if you would even have the ability to raise another human being in this world on this earth or anywhere else, like if you have the individual responsibility or ability to actually bring a child up in a healthy and responsible way to grown into an adult and you know like contribute to the rest of humanity. I mean wouldn't that be one of the questions you'd ask yourself if you were in a position that would be like close to conception for either your end or mine? I mean it can get you know pretty exciting or whatever but I mean when you look in the long run maybe taking five or ten minutes just to get some fucking silicone or whatever that maybe that would be a better idea than ricking having this kid that not only can you not bring into this world in a responsible and caring sort of way but that wouldn't even be able to atone for the sins against humanity that you've committed in your life like up to this point?

Well whatever I'm sure it will all get sorted out like one way or the other like maybe over time or whatever.

More at another point in time.